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Things changed when I got depressed in 2011. That was new experience and I suddenly wanted to write about it. It was new to write about feelings. However, I found very good books about depression, and it went away much quicker than I thought it will. It became hard to express how bad I felt, because it did not look so bad anymore and it was huge learning experience. I could write what I learned about emotional resilience, but I felt that again there were better books that I can write and there is nothing special about my experience. | Things changed when I got depressed in 2011. That was new experience and I suddenly wanted to write about it. It was new to write about feelings. However, I found very good books about depression, and it went away much quicker than I thought it will. It became hard to express how bad I felt, because it did not look so bad anymore and it was huge learning experience. I could write what I learned about emotional resilience, but I felt that again there were better books that I can write and there is nothing special about my experience. | ||
<strong>Truth telling. </strong> I grow up in Soviet Union with strong censorship. I remember my father listening to foreign radio. Sound had poor quality, yet he valued it a lot. I did not understand it at that time. With the collapse of Soviet Union came freedom of speech. I have learned how wrong was my understanding of the world. I learned to appreciate freedom of speech as one of the values to never lose again. Internet in my view is the best platform for it. | |||
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Revision as of 05:18, 6 December 2023
Background
When I was a child, I loved reading books. I think I read all fairy-tail books in school library. Later progressed to fantasy books till I have learned about computers. Then all books were how to program them. While studying I started to appreciate well written books and I learned a lot about writing, especially publications while I was working on my PhD. After this it was all technical reading and writing: analysis, specifications, design of the systems and so on. With access to internet the whole world opened up. It felt that you can find on Internet any information you need.
Things changed when I got depressed in 2011. That was new experience and I suddenly wanted to write about it. It was new to write about feelings. However, I found very good books about depression, and it went away much quicker than I thought it will. It became hard to express how bad I felt, because it did not look so bad anymore and it was huge learning experience. I could write what I learned about emotional resilience, but I felt that again there were better books that I can write and there is nothing special about my experience.
Truth telling. I grow up in Soviet Union with strong censorship. I remember my father listening to foreign radio. Sound had poor quality, yet he valued it a lot. I did not understand it at that time. With the collapse of Soviet Union came freedom of speech. I have learned how wrong was my understanding of the world. I learned to appreciate freedom of speech as one of the values to never lose again. Internet in my view is the best platform for it.
History
I started writing about road traffic injury as a way to cope with QBE not doing even the basic things, like paying for the very basic treatment I needed after the injury. However, I was cautioned by psychologist that sharing my feelings may have unexpected and unintended consequences. That QBE may take my words, twist them and use it against me. As I already experienced it from QBE to some degree, I stopped sharing. It felt wrong as it was helping me emotionally. I was hoping that my personal injury claim will get processed soon as I was promised many times by QBE and then I will be able to share my story. However, time passed, and it did not seem that QBE has any intention to process my claim at all.
After few years when I had some period of my clarity of mind improved, I realized the importance of sharing my story again. This time my solicitor was against sharing. I stopped doing it for second time.
In mean time every time there was some more significant movements with my claim my site would get attacked. This might be just strange coincidence, but I ended up with multiple versions of my site.
After shocking resignation of one of my solicitors I decided that it is time to come back to writing. Only it was very difficult as not only processing of events takes time, but I also was very pressed by time to fix problems in my claim and could dedicate only portion of my time to write despite its healing effects.
Regaining voice
Creating this site has also personal importance. I use my story as an example, but it is also very important to tell my story. It is important for:
Recovery - telling my story helps to process it. Safety - being able to share it with the world makes me feel safer. Meaning - sharing it and potentially helping others to avoid similar problems gives meaning to my suffering. Financially - among other things getting injured was a terrible financial loss. I believe that my story has significant value and therefore sharing it if I am lucky may bring some financial relief. More details about personal importance in sharing my story at The importance of publishing my story.