Daily functioning tips

After suffering trauma These were the tips that I found useful. For some it took long time to figure it out. Some of these tips I describe while writing my diary. However, this is benefit of wiki as can collect them in one place to make it easier to read.

• Have a routine, daily plan, but do not take it hard. You may not complete a single day this plan, but it will make your day simpler, when your head does not function.

Working in bed

When I am exhausted just sitting requires a significant effort. So, I move to work in bed. I arrange myself so, that I need to move only fingers. Everything including my head and my arms are resting on pillows. I arrange myself lying on my back in half seated position. Laptop has to be lifted up so, that you are actually looking up when you are looking at the screen. If you leave it low and will be looking down it will make you even more sleepy. This position gives me extra 15-20 minutes energy time before I completely shut down by dozing off, or simply lying numb. It is not very productive, but when you are in survival mode any move forward is a good one.

Is it worth it?

Maybe half an hour ago I got to the point where no matter how hard I tried; I could not focus anymore. So, I went for a short walk. It is a beautiful day outside. I used to love days like this. However now it was reminding how much I lost. Out of nowhere thought came to my head: "is it worth it?". It is my life. Of course, it is worth it. Any amount of effort is worth in trying to get better. I want my life back. Such questions imply that it was my free choice to get hit by a car and to be abused by layers so that I can fight them. You cannot ignore what has happened. There is no magic wand to undo it. The only purpose of this question is to put a blame on victim.